J. R. DePriest

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I feel my peaceful breathing, the heavy blankets on top of me. I open my eyes, expecting to see my wife beside me, reading a book by lamplight. Instead, I’m alone in a single bed under layers of fur comforters.

I can see my breath in the dim, reddish light. I look around.

No other furniture, a backpack, shoulder bag, and pile of folded clothes on the floor against the wall to my right. I sit up and see a short stack of spiral notebooks next to it: my life’s work. It’s always with me as I have no permanent address.

I look up at the wall near the ceiling. Emergency lights. The only lights.

Slowly the sound comes in.

First, my steady breathing.

Next, the stillness.

Dripping, creaking, distant muffled voices.

A laugh.

I remember who I am.

A consultant brought in by the mystery solving Derringer family. More Scooby-Doo than Supernatural, despite the name. Not that they would understand either of those references.

This is the abandoned hotel next to the old haunted Gilded Djinn amusement park. They got the generator working so they could live here while studying the place.

The dad was possessed. They didn’t know it. The ghost of a Parisienne serial killer put to death in 1938 had possessed him shortly after they got here three weeks ago. The ghost of a child, dead since 1953, told me about it last night. Even though I can see them, the child was but a wisp, a pink sparkling cloud in the shape of a skull. She'd been trying to reach me for days, but the serial killer was strong and suppressed, repressed, the others, hid itself plainly behind living flesh in a way that even I hadn’t noticed.

She can’t tell me her name. Maybe she doesn’t remember it. I call her Papillon because her fluttering colors remind me of a butterfly and she seems to like that.

She could only whisper and hint as to say more courts his attention, but I understood last night. I was supposed to stop him from killing again as he’d taken a secret mistress from town. They were never good enough. No matter how hard he tried to raise them from their station. No matter what he bought them, no matter how he lavished them. No matter what he did to educate them. They were all beneath him and they wasted his time and his affection. Again and again. They were so worthless that killing them was a mercy, the kindest thing he could do for them.

And the body he wore while doing it? Well, they should have had a stronger will than his own, shouldn’t they? The flesh is weak and he is most definitely not weak. Let them sort it out if they can. They swagger around in warmth, wearing blood and sweat; smelling, touching, feeling. Let them figure out what happened, why they went mad. If, with their vaulted senses and biological faculties, they were unable to ferret him out, then they deserved their fates.

I shrug off the covers, invigorated by the chill, breath deeply.

Mildew, moisture, decay. For some reason, I grin.

I slide around and step out of bed.

SQUISH

Shivering ice shoots up my legs all the way to my shoulders.

I remember the dripping sound, whip my head to the inside wall.

drip

Rivulets of water from the room above running down the wall.

I “see” the room, the father smiling at a strange brunette woman in a steamy bathroom. Behind his eyes, I see another set of eyes, greedy, indolent, and apathetic.

Papillon floats out of my head.

“sorry,” she whispers, a voice closer to my ear than her floating form appears.

I feel her shame at invading my space but there was no violation.

“Don’t be. It was far more expedient to show me than to try to tell me. “When?”

Time is elusive to a ghost. Being detached from a body’s signals and urges leaves one prone to missing days or weeks at a time.

A quiver passes through her. “i stayed aware so it must only be hours”

“So he’s close to finishing the act, then?”

She hesitates. I can feel her reaching out, testing the air, probing for his eyes.

“yes” she finally whispers.

I slosh over to my belongings, now sitting in two centimeters of water.

I look down at myself, a young adult man, black; thin, but well-built; wearing loose sleep pants and boxer shorts. No shirt.

I kneel down to check my fresh clothes. Even the top ones are damp.

I glance at my other belongings.

My eyes go wide in panic. My heart pounds and my ears ring.

My notebooks.

I gently touch the top.

Wet.

My vision goes red and my teeth grit, grinding so hard my jaw hurts.

At the same time, tears well and begin to spill.

I gingerly scoop them up and place them on top of the covers on the bed, afraid to spread them out and risk further damage.

Thirty years of notes, observations, dreams, musings, philosophy, journaling, secrets.

My heart sinks to my stomach.

So many memories.

Hands in fists, nails digging into my palms, tears rolling down my face, breathing in ragged bursts.

“I will kill him,” I think, seeing the desiccated, skeletal form of the ghost riding Paul Derringer, using his body for pleasure and murder. “I will rip him from the body, tear him into strips, and swallow them one at a time while he wails in horror.”

How does one kill a ghost? I know how yet rarely have I done it.

I will relish killing him. I will bask in his suffering as I eat his essence.

Shocked at my own thoughts, I try to calm myself, try to slow my breathing, control my pulse.

Papillon nudges me over and over.

She cannot see me like this.

I look at her but can’t speak.

A page from my notebook floats in the air, deftly separated from the rest without damage.

It sparkles with Papillon’s light, flattens, dries, without smearing the ink further, without tearing or ripping, without sticking to the other pages.

Moments later, the dry, clean page floats to the bed and another appears and undergoes the same methodical process.

She can rescue them. She can save my past.

My tears switch to those of relief, joy and mostly, of gratitude.

I nod to Papillon.

My blue jeans will be far to wet, even for an industrious little ghost. The sleep pants will suffice. My boots will be fine as the water was not deep enough to rise up over the rubber.

The closet still has the dusty old outfits of the last person to stay here. I find a shirt only a size or two too large.

Time is slipping, so this must be good enough.

The family waits for me outside.

Paul grins as if he knows that I know. “About time, Tarek. We thought maybe you’d taken a sleeping pill. Not sure how you slept through the commotion.” He’s fit for his age, effortlessly athletic and buoyant. Before the ghost indwelling, his generosity and kindness were overflowing. Now he prefers sarcasm and backhanded compliments.

The sleeping pill reference tells me what he did with the woman I saw in my vision.

Ainara, the mother, weary and weathered, smiles purely. Even beneath the hard years, of chasing ghosts, of raising four children, her deep alluring elegance seeps through. In another life, I would have courted her, married her, and kept her far away from this nonsense, forgoing even my own natural gifts so that I might spend all my efforts giving her everything she ever needed.

Adam, the oldest brother was away on his own investigation, leaving barely 18 Tom and the twin teenage girls, Cori (Corinna) and Eri (Erinna), named after Greek poets. The girls were destined to get their own spin-off set of adventures, that was obvious. Tom would have his own, as well soon enough. After Adam disappears during his investigation in the Appalachians in the coming months leading such that Tom sets off to find him.

The parents would retire into the background, showing up for the sake of nostalgia and for frequent flashbacks and phone calls for guidance.

But this story was to be the crowning achievement of the family as a unit, the last time they all worked together, save Adam whose absence sets up the next series. This was high stakes, lives on the line, pulling out all the stops. The possession of Paul was telegraphed far earlier to those who had been paying attention, long before I was brought in as a cross-over character.

They stand around a glowing hole in the parking lot leading down into the earth. It had not been there the night before.

Smoke or steam rises from it and it glows with red light, similar to the emergency lights in the hotel.

“That opened up last night?” I ask.

“The storm?” Ainara asks. “The air rang like collapsing steel for hours behind a wall of black water.”

Cori adds, “there was no lightning.” Then Eri, “but plenty of thunder.”

Tom shakes his head, hands on his hips. “I don’t like it.” He motions toward me. “T, come take a look, please. Let us know what you see.”

I nod and walk over, letting my vision fade in and out of this world and the other.

In the other, I see pale, glowing tumbleweeds drifting and flowing toward the hole, not fast, not a torrent, but it is like a drain has been opened into the other world and any ghost form or related energy not firmly connected is being drawn back toward it.

I think about Papillon and how she was eager to repair my notebooks wondering if she was seeking something to keep her attached for just a little while longer.

“It’s an opening into the other world,” I tell them plainly. “Give it time and it will clean up the infestation at Gilded Djinn all on its own.”

Paul immediately interrupts. “But then we’ll never know what caused it. We have to go in. We have to figure this out.”

Ainara stares at Paul, holding her mouth steady, squinting at him, but saying nothing.

Tom, newly a man, counters, “Dad. We are not prepared for this. We do not have equipment for spelunking, certainly not into the freaking other world.”

The girls, who I know have underdeveloped psychic powers of their own, glance at the hole and at each other, sharing a conversation only they can hear. I know they want to go inside. I know they want to go inside and are afraid of the fact that they want to go inside. I know they will be pushed to the brink and the struggle to save their family will enable their psychic powers to burst through.

I know that hole is more than just a portal to the other world. I know we are expected down there. There are long-gestating plans finally coming to fruition. Entire bloodlines worked toward this day.

We will go down into the hole.

We must.

Paul looks at me. “Tarek can help us see our way, right?”

I lick my lips, rub my chin, feel the inevitability, the pull of the narrative.

“I will do my best, Paul. I will keep you safe.” It’s a lie, but a necessary one.

So, after Paul loans me a pair of pants and I go change, after I gather a few trinkets from my belongings that might help us, an antique ghost-light, a handful of protective carvings, a bracelet for each of the twins and for Ainara.

Tom has the globular, gold, tin, silver, copper, and glass ghost-light. I demonstrate how you squeeze the mechanism on the side, it spins a dynamo inside which generates a burst of electricity used to shine the directional light for a few seconds. The light will reveal ghosts and ghost energy illusions for what they really are. In other words, it will let them see the world the way I can albeit only briefly.

The opening reveals a short drop to a ramp carved out of the asphalt and then the earth and then stone angled gently enough that we needn’t even brace ourselves from falling. The air is warm, buzzing with otherworld energy, filled with the remains of ghosts and other things decaying back into their constituent parts. I see the pieces of their bodies, violently torn, shredded, spread around like wallpaper, like paint, like window dressing. All for our benefit, to keep us comfortable.

Yet these ghosts volunteered for second death. It is the only way their remains would produce warmth instead of bitter cold. I can’t understand it. I know what I’m seeing but why would so many do this. What is so important about the Derringer’s coming down here?

Even with my foresight, even with my other world connections, even with my knowing the boundaries and artifice of this world, I can’t understand it. I can’t see what comes next. I know the ending. I see the ending. But the path is darkness.

What I notice most of all is that, when the end comes, I am not there.

“Be careful,” I advise as I cross a rickety bridge first. “Use the ghost-light. Some of the boards are missing but its enchanted to look whole.”

Tom cranks the handle and tries it out.

“Hmm.”

Tom kneels down and feels where a board was missing but visually seems to be there. His hand slips through.

“You can’t touch them,” he says. “You can feel each step with your foot before you take it.” He tells the rest of the family, “Just go slowly.”

On the other side, I see them feel the way ahead, one plank at a time.

I glance further down the path, seeing how the corridor of stone narrows ahead. It is filled with unsavory ghosts of all kinds, pirates, soldiers, ancient warriors, spirits of things not-human at all. I see them then I don’t see them, then I see them again. Something is trying to blind me.

In the distance is a green glowing village filled with both living humanoids and ghosts seemingly operating together. My vision shifts into their midst. They chant and dance around a black pit, wider than a skyscraper and at least as deep. They call to something sleeping, something to protect them from the family arriving from the surface. They fear the surface. They know what the dead have told them. They know about World Wars and weapons that can atomize cities in a flash. They know about slavery and prisons and courts with twisted laws that protect kings while subjugating the people. They know about great monstrous cities built on the backs of obliterated forests, siphoned waters, pluming world covering smoke that kills their own children. They know of the madness of those who live above them, how we destroy and ruin our world and they fear we are coming for theirs.

The thing that answers them from the pit is so massive that a single eye cannot see it, so through a thousand eyes I peer into the depths and see it rise, a mountain of stony flesh, mouth that could swallow a blue whale, its own eyes burning with heat and intensity. I feel its hunger and its pain. It was sleeping and now it is awake.

They know not what they are waking. They know not what it will do to them or the world above.

I pull back and remember myself, remember my history, remember some of who I really am.

I call to Iškur, Adād, 𒀭𒅎, 𐎅𐎄, I ask for lightning to sate this thing, to feed this creature so it does not eat the world itself. I cannot tell it my name for I have forgotten it, but I beg it to listen, to answer. I beseech it to protect not just this family, not just the fearful creatures dancing to their own doom, but to protect everything.

I call to the old gods, the forgotten gods to save this place for I understand that we were brought here to end it.

That was the purpose.

That was the plan.

I plead to save this reality.

I plead to save this version of Ainara.

The ground glows blue and a river of electricity rushes along the walls to the thing in the pit.

The electricity does not hurt it. Instead it feeds it. The creature gorges and gorges.

I reach into the stream and feel a rush in my veins and nerves, all firing at once, all bubbling and splitting, vibrating and humming. I burn, sizzle, my ears burst and my eyes boil in their sockets.

I hear my laughter echoing.

I see Ainara seeing my body inflate like a balloon in a split second before I explode into a mist.

I hear her weeping, shielding the children, Tom pushing past to see if any of what I was is left.

I feel Paul and not-Paul tugging at each other’s thoughts trying to make sense of what just happened.

But I am no longer there.

I shift sideways.

I’m at the bottom of a carved sandstone staircase that spirals up. Adam and Tom are right behind me. I can hear scrabbling in the distance, yelling, the clashing of steel on steel. Cori and Eri float a few centimeters off the ground, pushing against the air, against the onslaught with all of their considerable telekinetic might.

Adam shouts, “They can’t hold them back forever, T.”

Tom looks up the shaft next to me, “What do you think?”

I feel the entire stairway, heading up. Not the surface, but close. It crosses over into some other place along the way.

“It’s safe. I’ll float up, y’all come behind as fast as you can.”

Tom nods. “Got it.”

He turns back, “Come on!”

I’m already half-way up the shaft, feeling the quality of the air shift from oppressive to open, to something else.

I hear them running and hear the others pursuing behind them.

First Adam, then Tom. As as Cori and Eri make it I use my own abilities to crush the stone stairs, sending them tumbling into the shaft, sealing it and preventing anything from coming up after them, after us.

Tom slaps me on the back and hugs me, “Damn good work, Tarek!”

Adam adds, “Yeah, I’m really glad you thought to call Tarek for this.”

Cori says, “He saved the day for sure.”

Eri says, “He kept us from being taken.”

We’re close to the surface and it’s easy enough to find a path. We weren’t the first to come this far, just the first—in a very long time—to be foolish enough to go any deeper.

I was honestly surprised to get the call from Thomas. I didn’t think I was welcome.

Back at the homestead, I went into the stasis room to see Ainara, frozen twenty years ago after the last time I worked with the family. The unexpected explosion of other worldly energy sucked the life out of her. She’d be dead if not for the sorcerer I found who know how to do this. She wasn’t dead or alive, she was frozen in time.

I didn’t expect them to let me talk to her. Every moment out of stasis was another moment close to death. But I could see her, standing there, immobile. Her missing left eye a reminder of how wrong I was that night.

The twins had snuck up on me. They could do that now.

“She asks about you,” Cori says. Eri adds, “she misses you.”

I knew they brought her out from time to time when they needed her wisdom. I knew the sorcerer had said she would keep trying to find a way to reverse the anti-life damage that had been done to her soul.

I turn to them. “What happened to your dad?”

They look at each other and I feel a thought pass between them, but I can’t decipher it.

“Ask Tom,” Cori says. “Or Adam,” Eri adds.

I leave Ainara and find Tom in the study behind the desk engrossed in a massive, ancient book.

“What’s up, Tarek?” he asks, barely looking up from the tome he’s reading.

“Where’s your dad?”

“Hmm,” he says, then motions for me to sit down across from him.

As I’m sitting he asks, “You remember Dr. Gallagher, right?”

“The one who saved your mom, of course, I remember her.”

“Well, she didn’t have the same luck with dad, unfortunately.”

My heart sinks, “Paul’s gone? I’m so sorry.”

Tom shifts his head left and right.

“He’s not quite gone.”

I shake my head.

“I’ll just show you.”

Tom stands up and leads me out of the study to their trophy room full of artifacts and items picked up in their adventures. It smells of dirt, tree sap, ancient smoke, and libraries full of papyrus.

He points to a chest on a slightly raised section of floor. It’s the size of a steamer trunk.

“Go ahead,” he motions. “Open it.”

The lid is heavier than it looks, resisting as if there is suction or magnetism holding it in place. Finally, it snaps open.

Inside, I see an entire world, like a doorway, hiding a jungle. Birds caw, large things stumble in the distance, but the smell is dank, cemetery, rotten.

“Tom,” croaks a broken voice. “Adam?”

Something shambles into view below the portal, brown, ragged, covered in leaves and dripping worms and worse.

“Tarek? Well, I’ll be,” it groans.

I see blue eyes buried somewhere in the hideous face and hints of a smile behind the rictus grin.

“Paul?”

It can’t be. But it is.

“What happened?”

“Thought I’d found a way to bring Ainara back,” he rasps.

“I was wrong.”

He shuffles for a moment, looking away, looking at his hands.

I don’t know what to say. I don’t know what to think.

He looks back up.

“If you get a chance to talk to her, Tarek. If you find a cure for her.”

He looks directly into my eyes.

“Well, you have my blessing.”

Then he shuffles out of view.

I’m still staring when Tom closes the lid.

He puts his arm around my shoulder.

“It’s an undead world down there, Tarek. I mean a world where the undead thrive and the living are endangered.”

He pulls me away.

“Dad is safe there, more than safe.”

At dinner, they bring out dish after dish, meat and potatoes, meat covered in cheeses, meat in exotic sauces.

I’m still struck by what I saw through the portal in that chest and can’t even think of food.

My mind wanders, distracted, distraught. I can’t focus. I can’t think.

What was Paul thinking to end up like that? What did Dr. Gallagher do to him? Why was that the only option?

Something slips and my perception fully crosses into the other, something that never happens on its own. I have to will it and I certainly did not will it.

I see the banquet before me as it really is. None of the meat is cooked. It is raw. It is fresh.

Tom, Adam, Cori, and Eri are no longer human. I see them as the ghouls they have become.

The girls smile at me with lipless grins. “We see you,” they say in unison.

I pull my sight back but still see them, still see the reality.

Tom’s head is grotesque, held together by wires and metal staples.

“Tarek! You get to join us. Mom insisted.”

It’s not clear how Tom manages to speak at all, but that was his voice coming from his head.

Adam slides in with, “She didn’t want to leave you behind after we head in after dad.”

Cori says, “Dr. Gallagher is already waiting for us.”

Eri says, “This is the way to cure mom, what dad almost got right.”

I swoon, my head spinning, trying to grasp what they are doing, what they are asking me to do.

The world closes in, becomes a pinpoint of light and everything goes dark.

I sit in a cavern much like the one from before, but there are no ghosts here, just cowering warriors and their shield maidens before them.

I sit because the caves are too narrow for me to stand. At 7 meters tall, I tower over even the tallest among them.

I see the arena in the distance and kneel to shuffle toward it. I will fight them there. I will fight them all.

I long to see if Benttite flesh is as tender and sweet as was their rivals, the Amelonians.

I grunt and crawl until the cavern opens up for the arena. It was filled with fighting men and women, sparring and competing.

“I come to fight,” I tell them, my booming voice echoing off the stone walls. “I come to fight in your legendary arena where the pinnacle of human strength, strategy, and fitness strive to best one another.”

Alas, when the gate swings open, the arena is empty, all warriors having fled in my wake save one who does not seem the fighting type.

“My Lord,” he addresses me, kneeling and breaking eye contact. “Instead of combat, perhaps you would prefer a different style of conquest.”

He motions toward another exit and I see healthy men and women in little clothing eyeing me with half smiles and curiosity. I scent them immediately and understand the offer.

Although I cannot fully honor it, I am moved by their humility.

I nod to the little man and move toward the harem, my mutilated manhood doing its best to prepare for the experience.

They appease me. They indulge me by performing with each other. I see methods of pleasure and how to both delay and prolong it that are truly inspirational.

All the while I am plied with exotic foods of which I have never tasted, cooked and uncooked meats of varying shapes, strange fruits and vegetables, and drink with flavours the likes of which I had never encountered.

Each time I am approached to join in their sexual proclivities, I redirect the man or woman back to the throng, to show me something new, some other act forbidden by all the gods of the surface world and I am never disappointed.

I had heard of their prowess in war and battle but not of this, not of their creative depravity in the realms of sex or of their artistic skill with meal preparation. I supposed the renowned Benttite generals, soldiers, archers, and reavers must be fighting for something. Why not this?

After much gentle prodding, I finally show them my sex. I lift my furs and reveal to them what curse befell me.

My great size was a boon granted by a god whose name I was never taught. But to keep me from bringing about a great race to challenge those gods, I was hobbled.

My penis is wide as an oak tree yet as short as a what remains after one is felled and what skin it does have is covered in yellow pustules filled with unsavory fluids.

“It has always been thus,” I assure the awestruck audience.

Several among them assuage me they have the finest doctor’s in the known world and that would be honoured to treat me and find a cure.

Again, I am touched by how they treat me, a giant who had come to find pleasure in killing and eating their best while their blood still ran hot.

I consider their words as I am overcome by weariness and lose consciousness. I cannot know if I will survive the night, if their hospitality is genuine or a trick of their vaunted intelligence.

“I’m don’t know what the problem is, Sol,” I say, standing on a pearlescent balcony overlooking the black sky. “I had a fine time down there. You think it’s done? Kaput?”

I walk back into Sol’s workshop. He stands or maybe sits. It’s hard to tell with him. He stits holding the rough-shaped platter up at arm’s length, eyeing it with a grimace, squinting.

“I think it’s garbage, Jove.” He shrugs. “I should just eat the whole thing and get it over with.”

“Wait a second, Sol.” I’m trying to save it. I’m trying to save her.

“Stick it in the void. Let them stew on it. Let them see if they can figure out that there is no other world but theirs, that everything they need just happens to be there when they need it. See if they can look beyond it and ascend.”

Sol is rolling his eyes, shrugging, throwing up his hands, but saying nothing.

“Talk if you want to talk,” I shout.

“Bah, you never listen when I do,” he yells back.

“Stick it in the freezer then,” I shrug. “Come back to it later.”

We both know “later” means “never” but I said what I said.

“How many freezers do you have, Sol?”

He waffles before muttering, “three.”

“Three? That’s not bad!”

A chorus of voices rises up from the blackness that surrounds us, “three thousand.”

“Hah,” I laugh. “That’s sounds more like you than three.”

“What does that mean?” he gestures while tossing the world stone to the side.

“You never finish anything but you can’t throw it away either.”

He’s still muttering, “never finish anything, you should see what I’m building, what I’ve found.”

He’s definitely standing up now, but still not any taller.

“Come with me!” he demands.

I follow after him, looking down at his starry crown. Was he always this short? Was he always this bald?

The golden jeweled staircase of light leads to the basement where the floor itself is torn up.

“You ripped up your own floor?” I ask, putting my hands on my hips.

“Look underneath you old fool!” he calls.

I see it now, a silver stream leading off into the infinite night. Big enough for a toy boat if we had a toy boat.

Standing next to it, I can hear a shimmering trickle, a hint at consciousness, novelty.

I see a broken up chair built into a crude boat, barely big enough to stand in.

Sol and Jove argue.

Jove asks me, by name, by my real name, a name I had forgotten.

“Jessica,” he says. “Why don’t you get us in that boat.”

I thought I was Jove. I look down and see Jove’s body: a tall old white man in flowing saffron robes.

I have our body step into the shell of the boat made from a chair.

I slip our feet under a little overhang to keep us from falling. It clamps down gently.

“Do you need to tell Sol about me or… whatever?” I ask inside Jove’s head in my voice, not his.

Jove doesn’t answer. He’s still arguing with his old friend.

The boat shudders and starts to move away from the shore.

I have our body sit down, against the back of the chair, now a small platform, so we don’t rock the boat and fall out as we see where it leads us next.


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I was sent to a psychiatric hospital experiencing a “haunting”. It was one of those old school places that looks like a mansion out of a horror movie, a place that people spend a great deal of money to get access to. As usual, I was handed a folder and USB drive full of research the investigative team had already completed. This building had a series of unused sub-levels from the bad old days and an honest to god death tunnel. The dead don't bother me so I snuck in through the external hatch, where they used to occasionally remove the bodies. I'll skip the gory details if you don't mind and get right to setting up camp in the unused administrative office in the abandoned sub-level. Ears aching, neck hairs standing up, gooseflesh, like a cold spark pulsing through the whole place. I disguised myself as maintenance before grabbing my toolkit and heading up the stairs. The drywall dust only served to make my appearance more convincing. I did odd jobs around the place, listening, gathering intel. Patients escaping their rooms was too common to narrow down, but talk of a frozen swimming pool pointed me in the right direction. I had to be close. Walking down a wide, empty hallway, I heard something plink and stopped. “You dropped a button,” a husky voice said. I looked down and saw, sure enough, a button on the linoleum behind me. As I bent to pick it up, I got a look at the feet of the being who'd spoken to me. It was about an inch off the ground, barefooted, skin dry as stone and cragged, spotted with brown and gray. My heart rate was steady, my breathing normal, I chuckled to myself. “Thank you,” I said as I stood up and saw the whole thing. It was morbidly obese, pale and dry as a porcelain doll, and stark naked. Fat hid any discernible sex. Long white hair floated around its head like a bleached anemone. Eyes were yellow surrounded by black and the mouth was little more than a horizontal slash. No smell other than ozone. “I haven't seen you around,” I said. “Oh?” it said. “I'm new here.” I held up the button. “Thanks again, uh…Miss…ter?” I said, gazing expectantly. “It's Doctor, actually,” it said, without moving its mouth, “Doctor Sharpe.” “Thank you, Doctor Sharpe, then.” I turned and started to walk away. When you encounter an entity during a haunting, they typically want to be seen. The theory is that they literally feed on your strong emotions, your reactions. “Wait a moment,” it said in a softer tone. “Yeah?” I didn't turn around. “Would you—like to play a game with me?” I grinned and I'm sure it felt my elation. “I thought you'd never ask,” I said and turned back to face it. There was a table in between us that hadn't been there. “Nice,” I said, running my hand over its obsidian smooth surface. The entity was standing on the other side, no longer a floating ball. White hair hung down its oval face, wearing the same yellow eyes but with a delicate nose and pink lips around the mouth. Broad shoulders were draped with a white gown more appropriate for a gothic sleepover. She was smiling, shaking her cupped hands as something jingled inside. “What's your name?” she asked, showing her yellow teeth this time. “Anderson,” I said, giving her an alias. “I don't think so,” she said, tilting her head, her hair fluttering briefly to life. My ears tingled, and my hair ruffled just a little under my hat. A breeze ran down my sides to my feet, up my calves and thighs, met in my crotch, ran up my torso, by my chest, then split and went down both arms. She knew me now. Whether she'd be intrigued, confused, or angry remained to be seen. “Ooh,” she said and that was all. Coins clanged on the table as she opened her hands. They were colored, shaped, and sized like American quarters but without the ridges. “Take some,” she said. “And keep your button out.” I counted out four and slid them over in front of me. Picking one up, I glanced over, “May I?” Her yellow teeth smiled back as she nodded. Dense, heavy in my fingers, like real metal. Looked like cuneiform writing and instead of George Washington and an eagle, it was something like a lamprey's mouth on one side and a burning bush on the other. “You can see?” she asked, squinting. “Yeah,” I said. “A real beauty.” And it's true. I've seen lots of manifestations and this one was extremely detailed and surprisingly solid. In other words, this place was very, very tangled with the other. I stacked the coins in front of me and put the button beside. “So, Doctor Sharpe,” I asked. “What are the rules?” Her hair twitched. “Please call me Amelia,” she replied. “Okay, Amelia,” I said. “Then you can call me Alex.” She leaned in, asking, “Is that short for something.” While her hair started to writhe. “Maybe,” I told her, visibly grinning. I can play games, too. Sometimes, they like that. She leaned back and I felt nothing but anticipation from her. “You've already stacked the coins, I see. “Put your button on top of them.” I did as I was instructed. When I looked over at hers, the table had a mock temple made of old cardboard tubes from toilet paper and paper towels. I blinked a few times and it was still there. Another thing about hauntings. Even though we are tangled with another reality, there are still some things we aren't able to see. Our brains can't interpret it. As a safety mechanism, it'll hide things from us until they can happen when we aren't looking. When you look away, when you turn your back, when you blink your eyes, then your brain lets you see the change. You couldn’t see it happen. That's not possible. So I blinked to make sure she was done modifying the table. “You can go first, Alex,” she said. “You have to use your finger to flick the button at the temple. “The goal is to be the first person to knock it down.” The button on her stack of coins glinted when I tilted my head. “That hardly seems fair,” I said. “What would you prefer?” she asked. I looked down and saw my coins and button were replaced with food. I looked up and the temple and everything was now desserts. “First one to finish eating the temple?” I picked up one of the pastries and took a bite. Flaky, honey sweet, hint of pecan, powdered sugar on top. “Extremely good job on these,” I said. “They taste freshly baked.” “I'm glad you like them,” she replied, the table now covered in sweets of all kinds. Instead of eating more, I put it down. When they give you food, you have no idea what you are actually eating. You really don't want to know some of the things I've put in my mouth. She frowned, bunching up her bottom lip. Frustration. “I thought you wanted to play?” she said. “Actually, I'm down here because I heard about a frozen swimming pool. “Was that you?” Her hair danced. “They really seem to like it,” she said. “I'd like to see it, too, if that's okay.” She pointed beside us. “It's right there.” And it was. An Olympic sized swimming pool, frozen solid. I could see people at the far end. There was a faint impression of ice skaters, of Christmas trees, of carolers singing. “Christmas,” I said. I felt myself slipping into it, could smell hot cocoa and cookies, could feel a fireplace nearby. “It is lovely,” I said before shaking myself out of the reverie. “I cannot image how much effort that must have been to create for them.” Her face was stoic, stern, but her yellow eyes were moist, red tears welled. “They deserve it,” is all she said before she and her entire table slid into the floor and vanished. I hadn't felt malice or mischief, only remorse and pity. I headed toward the crowd, the illusion playing at the edges of my senses, eager to pull me back in coming in waves with a dull thump each time. As I got closer, I saw them pointing out on the ice, laughing and hugging, pretending to drink mugs of coffee or cocoa that were real to them. And the thumps got louder and louder. In fact, the thumps were so loud they had to be real. I looked over the ice, underneath the illusion of kids ice skating and throwing snowballs, underneath the sleds and snowmen. I saw something under the ice. A black mass moving and pushing up and failing to find a way out. It was desperate, I could feel that now that I knew it was there. I went out on the ice to the shouts of the others telling me to get off because I wasn't dressed for it, to stay out of the way, to be careful, to be nice to the kids. I knelt down and felt the ice. It wasn't cold. I still had my toolkit. No axe, but a hammer and a flat-head screwdriver might do. I started tapping, chiseling, then banging. The others were angry now, yelling that I was putting their kids in danger, that if I wanted to fish I'd have to wait until after the kids were done playing. The “ice” chipped like old concrete until I had a hole big enough to stick a hand through, an arm. It was only an inch thick. I had no idea how it was even holding my weight. The water was a syrupy but I waved my hand as much as I could until the black mass saw me and swam toward me. The “ice” bulged up under its pressure but wouldn't break. I pulled my arm out of the hole and pressed my ear to it instead. “Free me, please,” whispered. “Free me, please,” again and again. Hope and fear in equal measure came from whatever it was. At this point, I had an idea of what was down there and I hoped my hormones would keep me safe. I hammered and hammered, hearing her voice from the water the whole time, hearing the people screaming, begging me to stop, but unwilling to come out on the ice. Until it was a hole big enough for a person to climb out of, or be pulled into. I put both arms in the slushy water and told her to come to me. The black mass was already underneath and I felt its weight. I felt its urgency and its hesitancy. I felt it taste me, a tingle running through both arms all the way to my core. It pulled slightly before reversing and allowing me to pull it up. It resembled a horse, a bundle of wet grass, a pile of stones, a hag, a maiden, until it was simply a woman with green skin and seaweed for hair. I'd been so fascinated that I was able to see the transformations, the shifting, the refocusing of reality with my own eyes that I didn't hear the crowd's crying until it was over. The water sprit pierced my soul with a glance, looking me up and down. “Hmmph!” the green woman said, shaking her head. “Oh,” I said, putting my right hand over my heart and raising my left hand in a symbol involving the first and second fingers as well as the pinky and thumb. “By the secret name inscribed on my soul, I release you from any and all obligations borne of this transaction.” That got her attention. “Thank you,” she said reaching a trembling hand toward my face. I did not pull away as she touched my cheek. She had tropical lagoons for eyes, like a warm bath, like a mother's embrace. It was another glamour, of course, but I allowed it, almost against my will. Almost. I was on a beach. The ocean's roar behind me like an out of tune radio. She was in front of me, wearing a Tahitian pāreu, fragrant flowers in her thick, black hair, brown skin instead of green. “I'm so tired of the snow and ice, so tired of Christmas,” she said, looking up at the sky and squinting. I heard music, singing, like a choir but it was just her laughing as she spun in place. “I'm free!” she sang. “You freed me.” She stopped spinning and faced me again. She was getting closer but not walking. “Why did you reject your prize?” She was circling me but also still standing in front of me. I felt her eyes all over me, I felt her probing me. The sky turned to storm clouds. I looked down, closed my eyes, to avoid her million eyes. I answered, “You tell me. “By now, you know me at least as well as I know myself.” The sun returned. “You aren't like the men and women I normally meet,” she sang. I felt the urge to lift my head, a gentle breeze stroking my chin. “Please look at me,” she pleaded. I took a deep breath, faced her, opened my eyes, and saw her. She was beautiful, of course, like a live action Nani Pelekai? My heart fluttered as if she was my first true love and heat flooded out to my hands and feet. I wobbled, nauseated, like I might stumble or fall to my knees. “You do have a heart, after all,” she sang, “and I see how it beats.” I felt the warm breeze circling around my ankles, looked down, saw myself clearly for the first time. I, too, was dressed in a bright pāreu, barefoot, dark skin. Not my body. I tested my muscles to see how real I was: toes, feet, calves, knees, thighs, pelvis, stomach. Wait. Something was different. I went numb. Something was different. Impossible, but as real as my own flesh. My hands trembled, stomach racked with nausea, my legs buckled, I was on the ground, sand in my mouth and eyes. Tears, great torrents and I couldn’t stop crying. I couldn’t stop. I heard her fluttering toward me. “You refused my gift before I even offered.” She paused. “And it was because you thought you were doing me a favor.” She put a steadying hand on my naked shoulder. “That thing trapped me,” she said. “It told me to give them their children back. “I didn't even take their children.” I heard her kneel down beside me. I felt pity from her, pity but also longing. I shivered at her breath in my ear. “But you rescued me.” I couldn't see her through my sobs. I could barely hear her as I forced myself to remember this, to remember it. The ocean was coming in. Not sure how I could tell, but it was coming in fast. “Thank you,” she whispered, voice like an ice pick. It was a phrase that carried power, when a fae speaks it is wise to consider that any words can be full of power and magic and gratitude, genuine gratitude, is powerful indeed. Then I was lying on the false ice, lying in my own snot and tears, surrounded by grieving parents. The sorrow, the emptiness, drove away whatever had been haunting the place. I could feel that almost immediately. I carved some carefully designed sigils around at precise locations to help anchor against future resonance. I went back out the same way I came in, hiked to my concealed vehicle, climbed inside, and cried for an hour. I drove home in mute resignation of what I'd been allowed to experience. I left the personal details out of my full report, but they've never left me. And. Sometimes. When I dream. Instead, I'm back on that beach. I look out at the ocean, at the eternal cycle of waves in and out; at the horizon in the unreachable distance. I hear singing. But. This time. It's just the birds. I feel the sand between my toes, I smell the brine, the seaweed, fruit trees in the distance. I feel the warmth of the sun that never sets, the breeze that meanders along the water line. I sit in the surf, rubbing my belly, savoring every sensation, marveling at what I should not have. Waiting for her to come back. So I can tell her, “thank you.” But she never will.


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By the Lake

I read everything at the info kiosk of the Lake Ochonkmah Otter Lodge.

It used to be a hunting shack for otter hunters but was abandoned sometime around 1900.

In 1943, a husband and wife research team, Drs. Bartholomew and Candice Burroughs “rediscovered” the location while hiking around the lake and studying the local otters, which were rumored to be particularly sociable and friendly. They made camp on the site and made note of its location. Over multiple trips it became a bonafide research station and was repaired, built-upon, and expanded.

It was their life's work for 30 years and they developed a niche following among otter aficionados. The otters at Lake Ochonkmah were very friendly and completely unafraid of humans. The Burroughs speculated that the hunting had been easy and they never had a good explanation for it being abandoned.

One theory, borne out by examining remains, was that a mystery illness had thinned out the otters and wiped out the humans who knew about the location, leaving it free to recover and flourish.

The only reason to visit this place was to watch the otters. The water was far too cold year round to be comfortable for swimming and there were precious little in the way of game fish left after the otters had their fill.

Still, a small town grew up during the height of the Burroughs' research, a country store for supplies and a bed and breakfast style boarding house for transients and travelers.

On October 15, 1975, Candice died in her sleep at the age of 61. There was no warning as she had been working with Bart the day before and gave no indication of being sick. Bart became understandably withdrawn and depressed and focused on his work. Less than a month later, he died in his sleep, as well, on November 22, 1975. He was 63.

Without the support of the doctors, the research station fell into disrepair and what little tourism there had been stopped entirely.

In 1987, the millionaire Margo Fillings swept in like a tornado and revitalized everything.

She never said why she was so passionate about this place, but she turned the old research station into an overnight learning experience and encouraged schools to bus kids in to learn all about the Ochonkmah Otters.

The general store was re-opened with a more worldly selection of goods, snacks, candy, soda, and the like.

The bed and breakfast was remodeled into a proper family restaurant with the rooms being used to house the staff.

A motel opened just outside of town to accommodate any other travelers.

The rest of my class was still in the observation room where it was kept dark so you could peer out the long glass floor to see the otters in their natural habitat.

I was out in the well-lit hallway, trying to talk to the guide, but she kept ignoring me, telling me she had somewhere she had to be and going back and forth between an office in the back and checking on the observation room.

She ran back and forth and back and forth.

She had to squint to see inside the observation room and she'd look inside and shake her head.

And then scurry back to the office.

I didn't want to go into the observation room so I stayed out in the big lobby and read the infographics again.

Margo Fillings was the savior of the town according to the infographics.

She looked like a gymnast in her photos: short build, athletic, with thick legs, an attempt at a pixie cut but her red hair was too curly to stay down. Always smiling. Always looking directly at the camera.

My legs were thick, too, but so was the rest of me. Not so athletic. Sometimes, my legs would stop working and I'd have to sit down or lie down, but that didn't happen very often.

When the other kids from my class started to filter out of the observation room, I was looking for Angela and Angie, the best friends I'd ridden down with.

Angela was really smart, good at math like I was, but also good at music which I wasn't. Angie was an artist and barely passed any other classes, not because she couldn't but because she didn't feel like it was worth the effort.

They were my friends, my only real friends.

I had trouble making friends because I was prone to talking too much or saying the wrong thing. I did that all the time. I said the wrong thing and people got mad, but never told me why they got mad.

Angela came out and she was rolling her eyes while walking toward me.

“Angie found a boy,” she told me.

Angie would latch onto a boy and obsess over them.

Then she would date them, get to know them, and suddenly get over them.

Angie came out with her arm wrapped tightly around a tall boy's waist.

He wasn't even handsome or pretty. He had stringy hair and his clothes were too baggy. He looked dirty.

“He plays the fucking guitar in a band,” Angela told me.

That explained it, apparently.

Everyone else left, teachers, chaperones, students.

Everyone left except for Angela, Angie, Angie's new obsession and his “bandmates” who were just as dingy and he was.

Angie was pale and raven-haired like an angel might be, but she preferred to wear black, even her makeup was black.

Angela wore light blue slacks and a silk blouse. She was always so exquisite.

We stayed two more days, at the motel outside of town.

On the third morning, Angie was gone.

Angela told me that she'd left with the band and we'd be lucky to see her at all for a few weeks.

She was 17 and she liked to pretend she was an adult.

Angela was really quiet that day.

I think Angie didn't tell her that she was leaving with the band.

When I woke up the next morning, Angela was gone. Her clothes, her toiletries, her bag, and her car were all gone.

I walked back to town and into the Otter Lodge.

I walked in and told the lady who worked there, the same one from the overnight visit, that I was lost.

She asked me my phone number and I didn't know.

She asked me for my parent's names and I didn't know.

She asked me for my name and I didn't know.


According to Margo Fillings, the anomaly was here on her first visit to the town, back when she was first considering pouring her resources into it.

It looked like a teenaged white girl. Limp brown hair, a little pudgy, a little slow witted, but it spoke like a normal teenaged girl and it was wearing normal clothes.

She thought it was a mannequin because it was motionless, not breathing or moving. Its eyes were wide open, not blinking.

She touched it.

The skin was warm to the touch but stiff.

It shivered at her touch and immediately became supple.

Its chest began to rise and fall. When she looked at the face again, the eyes had closed. It appeared to be sleeping.

She assumed it was a runway and woke it up.

It's first words were, "Hi, Margo!"

Margo says she maintained her composure, but "citation needed" you know.

When she asked it "What's your name?"

It replied something like, "Don't be silly; you know who I am."

So she gave it a name, "Lillian", after the flower, and it took it.

We know this because Margo kept a journal. I've read it. It's practically Exhibit A.

The journal says "I said the first name I could think of. I remembered seeing lilies out front, so I called her Lillian. It was a question, I asked her if her name was Lillian and she agreed that it was. That wasn't what I was asking, but she just accepted it."

But if you ask Margo about it now, she will tell you that the anomaly is, in fact, "Lillian Harper" and that she was always "Lillian Harper" and that they knew each other before she found her in the back of the research building gathering dust, before she gave her a name.

One time, a guest was here with her fiancé.

She was so kind, wearing white to contrast her dark wavey hair. She spoke like a poet, it was mesmerizing. She wrote about the trees and the flowers and the lake and the otters.

She found beauty everywhere she looked. Decaying leaves, moss, and mushrooms covering a fallen tree trunk. An otter's corpse washed up on the shoreline. The sun on her face and in her eyes. Storm clouds flashing in the distance. The sounds of the wind blowing the ghost lights over the water at night.

Her fiancé was comparatively grumpy. He was a writer, too and they thought this place would inspire them both.

For him, it was uncomfortable, aggravating his allergies, covering him in ants and spiders, spoiling their food. He only saw unnecessary turmoil.

There can be beauty in unexpected difficulties, right?

She saw it. Her eyes sparkled with it; her soul glowed and reveled in it.

She was kind to me, even though I couldn't walk.

I was in a chair most of the time. I would be in my spot in the chair outside the old research center in the morning and back in my room at night.

My arms worked, my lungs worked. I could breath and speak and think and smile. But my legs felt like nothing at all. Like empty shells filled with dirt. Like anchor weights tied to my pelvis.

I told them stories about the otters and about the people who used to work and live here.

I told them about the Drs. Burroughs and how they both died but nobody knew why. I thought it was the sadness.

This place had a sadness about it, always, but people would come and cover it up and ignore it.

They would find the life, the singing of the insects, the splashing of the otters, the waving of the trees, and ignore the emptiness underneath it.

They would study and sleep and observe and feel and love and eventually it would find them.

They would wonder where it all went and why it took so long to notice it was gone.

“Melancholy” they called it.

She thrived and grew and blossomed.

He withered.

All he left behind was a perfect bouquet of white lilies.

She threw them on the ground right in front of me.

They didn't wither.

They flourished.


They've had to send multiple agents because every other agent eventually believes the lies.
First question I asked? "Why not take it to a real lab instead of doing all the study here at a compromised location?"

Answer: Any attempt to remove the anomaly from the site results in tremors that get worse the further away it's taken.

So they keep sending us and once we stop sending in updates, they come and get us and send in someone else.

I've seen the photos and the records of the examinations of the anomaly and it definitely is not human.

It has the outward appearance of a teenage girl, but only superficially.

It's anatomy has been thoroughly detailed while it was in its dormant state.

Constant body temperature of 96° regardless of the outside conditions.

Smooth skin resembling that of a typical Caucasian but only from a distance. There are no pores and no body hair, not a single blemish. The skin cannot be cut or punctured using any methods we've devised and it doesn't bruise. There is no evidence of veins or blood flow of any kind, no pulse at all.

It has the shape of breasts but no nipples. It has buttocks but no anus. Instead of a vaginal canal and urethra, it has a shriveled phallus with no openings. There are no visible testes.

The head appears almost entirely human. It has nostrils that seem to lead to a nasal cavity. Eyes with tear ducts that react as expected to light even when it is dormant. It has eardrums and eye lashes and eye brows. All the hair on the head seems to be attached as expected even when the rest of the body has none at all. It has a mouth with the correct looking teeth, a tongue, a trachea and esophagus, but its internal structure remains a mystery.

Endoscopy hits impossible dead ends when run down either throat tube.

It doesn't breath when it's dormant so we aren't even sure if it needs air.

While dormant, it has been submerged in water for prolonged periods without any ill effects.

We have observed that when it returns to its active state, sometimes only parts of the body revive fully, such that it appears to be paraplegic or quadriplegic. It compensates by entering a semi-dormant state and "floating" between locations. Even when done in full view of locals, none of them recall seeing it happen.

It has never demonstrated this ability while fully active, only while semi-dormant, a state that resembles "sleeping".

One time, my friends put on a musical production of Grease.

They know that I love musicals and singing even if I can't participate.

They staged it around the Lodge so I could sit out front. Even though I couldn't walk and had trouble speaking, they made sure I felt like part of the show.

I was able to move my arms and smile to “You're the one that I want!”

“Oh yes, indeed!”

The spectators noticed and the cast sang “We go together” to me while I was able to shift back and forth.

It elevated everybody's spirits.

After the musical was over, after the people had said their goodnights to each other and to me.

After I basked in the feeling of accomplishment and acceptance, I drifted off to sleep.

I dreamed of swimming in the lake. The water is far too cold for swimming in real life, but it was warm in the dream.

I was so far out that I couldn't see the shore on either side. The lake isn't that big, but in the dream it was.

I wasn't afraid. I wasn't afraid at all because the water was calm and it supported me.

Deep, deep below me, I could see lights and motion as if an entire city were down there.

I wanted to go down there. I wanted to see who it was.

But my head refused to go under the water. I would try but the water would push me back. The water wanted me to stay up here.

I could almost hear them building something, creating something marvelous.

But it wasn't for me.


We've checked air, water, food toxicology. We've bagged insects and plants for allergens, poisons, or venoms.

We've run up antenna to check for electromagnetic sources, Geiger counters for radiation, specialized microphones for ULF, ELF, UHF, and EHF.

Nothing.

We've even had Astrologers, Diviners, and Ley Line experts check it out.

The local Native Americans were, unfortunately, driven out and killed by settlers long ago. The only record we have is the name of the lake itself, "Ochonkmah", which looks like it's derived from something Native American but is too bastardized for a direct translation. It resembles the Choctaw word *achukma* which has positive connotations of "good" or "pleasing".

The only other anomaly is a strong magnetic source out in deeper waters, assumed to be an ancient meteorite. It's far too cold and deep for regular divers and we've yet to get permission to field a top-of-the-line manned submersible or ROV. Camera and robot claws we drop on lines inevitably hit snags. Cameras show significant debris around the site. What artifacts we've hauled up matches what we would expect from Viking long boats. There is no good reason to find that sort of debris at this location.

The magnetic source could help explain the ghost lights which are known to float over the water during particularly warm autumns.

We've caught them on film multiple times with various cameras. The purple glowing globules read very similar to St. Elmo's Fire. They cannot be ignus fatuus due to the lack of flammable gas. We've yet to have a boat on the water fast enough to observe them up close.

It had to be a dream, but it felt so real. It had to be a dream since nobody else saw it.

There was a festival in the main yard, but I was on the shore looking out over the lake.

I saw a silvery disk come out of the sky and make as if to land on the surface.

Before I could think, I was in the water, swimming with all my might toward it.

The water is too cold to swim in, but I was swimming and it wasn't that cold.

I never swam so fast before. My legs worked better than they ever had and pushed me forward while my arms carved great handfuls of water over and behind me, like I was climbing a mountain of snow.

I reached the disk and it was tiny, no bigger than a Frisbee.

I was certain it had been a spaceship but here it was no more than a toy.

I stopped swimming and found I could stand. The water out here should be quite deep but I stood up.

I looked back toward the shore and saw a tall, purple skinned humanoid motioning for me to pick up the disk.

His skin was dark and smooth, leading to thin arms that moved more like tentacles than something with bones and joints. His head was round like a matchhead and his eyes were black.

His slit-like mouth was smiling.

I'm not sure how I could tell it was smiling, but it was.

I picked up the disk and he pointed out further into the water.

I turned and saw a massive blobby creature, like something made of the squishy from the bottom of the lake.

It was rushing away from us with a massive crooked wake.

Parts of it seemed like stones or rocks and two of them turned and I saw they were huge eyes, watching my hand holding the disk.

I held it close to my chest and flung it out like a Frisbee and the blob leaped after it, a giant mass of barely held together pieces shaped into a huge dog's head on a turtle's body with flippers for legs.

It grabbed the disk in its mouth and collapsed back onto the surface of the water with a SLAP.

The purple creature was applauding me and motioned for me to come closer.


Occasionally, this place hits the news cycles and tourism has a temporary boost.

The businesses open back up, people show up to run them. People show up and buy tickets, souvenirs.

The otters get to entertain a new batch of people.

It goes like it always goes here.

It's great at first, then it gets rougher, then it gets angrier, then something bad happens and it dries up.

Disappearances usually.

Maybe murder but no bodies are ever found.

Rumors start to flow.

People get afraid again.

It goes dormant.

The anomaly is always part of the revival and she reacts very poorly to the negative happenings.

She plays really hard at being upset and not understanding why people can't be kind and get along.

There is no way to know if it is "genuine" sadness as she isn't human to begin with.

She's very convincing and seems to know intimate details of the lives of those who live here. She can speak to their wants, needs, dreams, fears, weaknesses, everything as if she is their best friend in the whole world.

She knows things about me that I won't put down in a report.

She knows things about our research that she shouldn't. When she gets deep into esoterica, her voice changes a bit, becomes monotone, almost like she's reading a script.

Ask her about it afterwards? She claims she doesn't remember and seems to freak out if you play back a recording of it.

I'm not sure how we can keep things from her as she seems to know everything that happens around the lake, including internal thoughts that are never voiced or written at all.

It may be too dangerous to continue the investigation and we may want to write off our losses and leave it be.

I thought I was like a daughter to her.

She took me in and I lived and slept under the same roof as Imelda, Margaret, Stephanie, and Beatrice.

I was there for their first loves and their first heartbreaks.

I was there when they wondered what the point of it all was.

I helped them find meaning. I helped them understand the nature of people and of men.

I thought they would be strong enough to go out on their own, but they always went back to someone.

They seemed to not know themselves unless they were supporting a man.

It was sad and I told Mrs. Glenn it was sad and she agreed with me.

Mrs. Glenn and I wanted the girls to be self-sufficient like she was.

She raised all four girls without a man and she did a fine job.

Being the proprietor of the restaurant meant she had room and board for them as long as they worked.

She never did put me to work on the floor and she never told me why not. I asked and asked until eventually I stopped asking.

But I helped her with my stories and with my advice.

I told her about the history of the lake and the research station and the fur trackers and the otters.

I told her about the ghost lights and about the silver disk that came down from the sky.

I told her about the riches that had been lost time and again by strange ships that should never have tried to sail.

I told her about the plants and insects and which ones were safe and which ones were to be avoided.

She spun those into the recipes a little at a time, spreading good cheer and health with each meal sold.

When Imelda left, no note, just all her things gone and her and her boyfriend nowhere to be found, she came to me and I had no answers.

Imelda hadn't confided in me. None of the girls confided in me anymore.

When I asked them why, they told me they “outgrew” me and that was that.

But Imelda had been distant for a long time, keeping to herself.

Margaret was learning how to cook the special recipes with her mom and Mrs. Glenn couldn't be happier.

It made no sense for her to be the next to leave without a word.

But she was gone. Her clothes were gone. Her man was gone.

Imelda had never called and she expected the same from Margaret.

She didn't asked me for advice this time.

She didn't talk to me for a long time.

Not until Stephanie was the next to go missing.

She talked to me “before Beatrice went away,” she said.

She told me she knew what was happening and she thought she was paying her dues.

She thought she was doing what was required by making the recipes and serving them.

She said her missing girls sang dirges to her from the deep water.

They sang to her and told her that she failed them and failed everyone and that the lake would take its price one way or another.

She told me all this like I could do something about it, like I was part of it.

I didn't understand, but I asked her what she thought the price might be and if she thought it was worth it, if she thought she might be willing to pay it if she knew what it really was.

I asked her that question because I wanted her to figure it out on her own. I wanted her to think about what was important to her. I wanted her to recognize the love she had for her daughters and how that was clouding her judgement.

I didn't know what she would do.

She drowned herself in the lake.

Beatrice took over the restaurant.

I was sent back to the research station.

She never talked to me again.


The otters here are another part of the anomaly. They are obsessed with humans. They study us just as much as we study them. They've formed a particularly large raft and maintained it over generations, which is quite unusual. The males and females and the offspring all seem to stay close. There are so many of them that, even though the lake is very large, there are very few game fish left for anglers to catch.

Some say they should have run out of food by now, but they obviously haven't.

They don't seem to be any smarter than other otters, but they ratchet up the curiosity.

So when they suddenly pulled away from the shore where the settlement was located, it was odd.

They were acting strange. The locals didn't seem to care much, even though much of the tourism relied on them.

It was doubly unfortunate because Lake Ochonkmah and the Otter Lodge had been featured on some popular podcast which got it recognized by real celebrities who were stopping by for photo ops.

I think after Tiger's birthday party, though, that the tourism will die back down, due to all the bodies they found.

The only one who noticed or cared about the otters was Melanie.

She definitely noticed during the birthday party and tried to get Mr. Fletch, who runs the tours, to do something, but he wasn't there.

Once he got back, I think she sent Axl Fucking Rose up there to talk to him. I was close enough to hear Mr. Fletch yell at him, telling him to mind his business and that he didn't care if they were sick as long as they were still in the water.

When I left the lodge, I noticed a white and red helicopter in the yard that had not been there before. Further away, toward the road I saw an area cleared of trees and a small, personal airplane was parked, also white and red. Toward the lake was a white and red jet ski. I noticed they all had little red ribbons on them and thought they must be presents.

A group of people were walking in from the road, surrounding an attractive black man in white slacks.

I recognized him: Tiger Woods.

I was excited that our little outpost was so famous that someone like him would visit and I realized it must be a birthday party.

I went down to the water to stay out of the way.

I wanted to see if the otters had returned to this side of the cove.

Once I scrambled down and got a better look, I saw that they were still as far away as they could be without going out into deeper water.

Additionally, they seemed to be agitated and moved in jagged bursts in the water.

I climbed back up the embankment and went to the General Store where Mr. Fletch ran the tours.

The small desk and register were vacant. I looked at the books and post cards and the souvenirs and smiled.

A man with long red hair came in and asked me a question.

“Excuse me, but is there something wrong with the otters?”

I was so excited that someone else noticed.

“I was thinking the same thing,” I said.

“I know the local bevy has a reputation for being friendly, but even for normal otters, they seem distressed.”

He explained that he noticed their fur was matted which would terribly diminish their ability to keep warm and swim.

I explained that they were normally on the near shore and that they'd fled to the other side days ago, long before everybody else showed up.

I further told him that I wasn't able to get any of the adults to understand how grave the situation was, not even the docents at the Lodge.

He was puzzled but didn't have anything else to say.

The party was starting and I went back down to the water's edge.

I saw the nice man with red hair go back to Mr. Fletch but Mr. Fletch seemed to be angry about something so the nice man left again.

I was so worried about the otters that I decided to go to them.

I slipped into the freezing water, not shivering, but feeling my legs go numb almost immediately.

I pushed deeper and started swimming.

I wasn't fast like I'd been in my dreams.

I kept my head above the water because I knew that would be the end.

I swam toward the otters and they ignored me.

I swam and felt something touch my legs.

I treaded water and looked down.

I looked down and the water was super clear.

It was clear and I saw Angie down there.

I saw Angie, I saw Dr. Candice Burroughs.

I saw Angie, and Dr. Candice Burroughs, and Margo Fillings, and Camilla Harper the poet.

I saw Vanessa Glenn and her daughters Imelda, Margaret, Stephanie, and Beatrice.

I saw them reaching for me, their smiling faces and their long outstretched arms and fingers.

I felt them touching my feet and my legs.

I expected them to be angry, but they were at peace.

They wanted me to be at peace.

I thought about how I was never truly loved here.

Nobody accepted me.

Nobody understood me.

I was merely tolerated.

I was never part of a family.

I was never a friend, only an acquaintance.

I didn't belong here.

I never belonged here.

I belonged somewhere else.

I belonged somewhere else.

Instead of going under to where they were, I floated on the water until it was golden.

Until the sky was silver and the water was gold.

I floated and I saw a place of crystal and glass, glowing with internal light.

I saw them standing on the platform embracing and laughing.

All the woman from the water were up there and they were happy.

I floated toward them.

I wanted to join them, but the platform was too high and I wasn't allowed.

I wasn't welcome.

I sank away and wanted to cry.

I wanted to be alone and to cry.

A strange woman approached me.

Her face was plastic and her hair wasn't real.

She approached me and said, “I am your mother.”

I never had a mother before.

I heard her say “I am your mother” and the voice was pure bliss, like melted chocolate and rainbows and warm nights and the kiss of a kitten's whiskers.

I heard her and I believed her.

I believed her and I let her embrace me.


Like I said, a dozen bodies from the lake, all perfectly preserved, all women who went missing, even a couple nobody knew were missing yet.

A dozen bodies found on one hand and the disappearance of Melanie, the anomaly herself, on the other.

You know what the main office told me?

"Forget about it. It doesn't matter."

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I'd reached an accord with the spiders. I'd invited them into my corner of the Dreamlands and built them a playground, per their specifications. Crevices, overhangs, shadowy corners, boxes upon boxes, a leaky pipe, piles of clothes, abandoned cupboards, attic full of furniture and old books, a nightmare house all to themselves. And if the occasional dreamer stumbled upon it, even better. So they acted as my protectors in the Gloam instead of mere watchers or worse, tormentors. They were completely unaware of the “side passage” I was seeking to the Fugue, the place just between dreams and wakefulness. I was determined to ask The Hat Man, something they advised me against. Repeatedly. Nothing was worth what it might cost, they told me. The Hat Man does not have friends among humans or see them as equals. Even Dreamers are beneath Him. We are nothing but toys. And He enjoys breaking His toys. The spiders were afraid of Him even as they swarmed at His call to suck on the juices of his cast-offs and conquests. I appreciated their concern. Truly, I was touched by it. But, I needed to find Him. Again. I had seen Him. Once. At 600 mg, when the walls vibrated until they were transparent and He was there, on the other side, watching. I wasn't deep enough to make contact. I couldn't even see His eyes. But. When I was growing up, the back yards in our neighborhood, on my side of the street, all shared a low spot in the far back, by the fence-line. When it rained, water rushed down that trough like a river. Sometimes, we'd catch earthworms that came up to avoid drowning. We'd collect them in a big bucket and play with them until the rain stopped. Then we'd dump them back out on the mud. When The Hat Man looked at me with eyes I could not see, for just a moment, I was a struggling worm, fleeing for my life, being plucked up and dropped in a foreign place surrounded by the screams of my peers. For just a moment. Then I was dumped back into my bedroom. The spiders covered me in their warmth, eight times a thousand clawed feet massaging me in comfort. Still, I shivered. That was the Thing I was going to convince to help me? I was like garbage to It, like dust. This place, the Gloam, was not the Dreamlands and all my learned skills were muted or easily wiped away.

But, I had to try. I am trying.

At 750 mg, tonight, right now, the walls drip black stinking ichor, like a busted septic tank oscillating in the static of a scrambled cable channel. “You think you're the smartest motherfucker in the world,” my step dad calls out to me. He hasn't been part of my life in decades, but he calls out all the same. “And you can't even find the Fugue – get out here you stupid faggot – bring me a beer before I come in there – don't make me come in there” I'm twelve years old again. I want to hide in the closet. I want to cry quiet tears. I want to climb a tree. Instead I pick up my hunting knife, the one I inherited, the one that's tasted blood, that's been honed and sharpened. I stand and the floor sucks me in, sinking me up to my knees. Mud. Sucking and plopping as I trudge forward. The spiders have fled, replaced by hostile snakes, flicking their tongues, rattling their tails. Darting their heads to force me to the wall. Not the door. Not the closet. To the wall with the mirror. I accidentally look at my reflection. I know I shouldn't. I try not to, but I can't blink, can't turn away. Twitching muscle, exposed nerves, dripping blood as my skin is flayed by the air like a million tiny razor blades, and the mud a seeping infection. I can't scream. I swing the knife at the mirror and am pulled through, tumbling in cold, stale air. Landing on black obsidian. You never stood up for yourself. It's my own voice. Inside my head. You could have saved him, you know. If you really believed. No. Not in my head, spinning around me, close, invisible. Stand up. Don't be a baby. Stand up! On my knees, I see Him. The Hat Man. He's right next to me. He's impossibly far away. A living shadow, like a charcoal smudge on reality with two empty white sockets for eyes and no other features save the tell-tale hatlike shape. I told the kittens how warm it was under the hood. I unlocked the gate for the bike thieves. I helped them dig up the grave and took the first bite. Sometime in the next month, I'm going to crash your car. Why did you want to be known to me? In a few years, less than a dozen, you will be diagnosed with Stage 2 cancer. I know who your soulmate is and I've already poisoned her against you. You wear glasses now but your eyesight will continue to get worse until you are legally blind, just like your aunt, far before your time. I am the reason mosquitoes seek you out. I gave you the choice and you did what I wanted. Time doesn't work like that for you. Here. Defend yourself. My own voice has been circling me, taunting me, saying so much overlapping, blending together, backwards and forwards. He is telling the truth. In my own voice. I tense and call upon Dream Logic long enough to float into the air, upright and a few inches off the ground. I reach out to push Him away. To bring Him closer. But He stays everywhere in between. I lift my hands to call lightning but my fingertips only drip with tar. “I just want my night terrors back,” I squeak. “I just want to see them again.” Now that I know you, I have always known you. My joy, my sustenance, is your misery. Not pain. Not loss. Not anger. But deep longing, unquenchable regret, languishing indecision. You should have died when you cut yourself so deeply in secret shame, but I saved you. I saved you so I could enjoy your suffering. I will always save you when there is more hope I can siphon and dreams I can shatter. Only when there is nothing left will I let you take your own life. And you will. You already have. I suddenly feel the knife in my right hand. It was there the whole time. I hold it up. The shining steel reflecting non-existent light, glinting to remind me of its reality. I swipe toward The Hat Man but He is nowhere. The blade leaves a rainbow trail of light in its wake. I try again. He is always ahead or behind. And again. He isn't even laughing or taunting. He just is and then isn't and then is again. I remember what I know of The Shadow Things that The Hat Man seems to rule. I look at my left palm, flexing my fingers, before stabbing myself with the knife. Pain, like ice, then fire. My blood swims out as writhing tentacles, reaching toward The Hat Man. Then an explosion in all directions, faster than I can see. Pulling my essence along. I feel the walls and ceiling all at once. Smaller than it seemed. Is The Hat Man even here? Was He ever? A presence like a bug. Like a projection or a speaker. A knob, a protrusion. My body of blood tentacles grips it, pulls it from the wall. And crushes it. I'm on my back, naked, covered in sweat, lying on top of my comforter back in my bedroom. My left hand throbs, oozing thick blood. My throat is so raw I can scarcely swallow. I feel as if nails are being driven into my temples. I'm crying. I hear the spiders scurry, but the now opaque walls no longer move. The floor appears solid. I see myself as expected in the mirror.

The lukewarm shower calms my nerves, my breathing. But I still hear my own voice asking me why I wanted to make myself known. Does He even have a voice of His own? As the cut on my hand clots exceptionally fast, as my headache clears, I know I am seen. I am known. From cradle to grave.


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A tickle, a nuzzle against my neck. A breath. A sigh. I can't move, but I feel the slow, steady rise and fall of my chest. My eyes stay closed. I'm suspended, hovering, hesitating as each side pulls gently. My arm slips and I feel the smooth, muscled warmth of your thigh as you wrap your legs around me from behind. Familiar. You touch my shoulders and slip your hands under my arms. Trembling, my heart thrums, spilling warmth. Smiling, I nod so slightly I'm not sure you noticed. Your exploring hands answer by reaching between my legs, your mouth answers with teeth on my neck. A moan. Not sure if yours or mine. I long to turn around, to close my eyes enough that I can see you, know you, but my arm is asleep. And I hear the fan. My breathing is fast and shallow. I'm lying on my back. Awake. Alone.

I long to see you, to know you, but my body, my mind can't stay there, in the fugue, the twilight, the in between. Do you miss me when I wake? When I sleep and dream? Do you watch from invisible crevices, hiding in shadows, hoping I will remember how to find you? Do you know my True Name? My purpose? I am incomplete. I feel it every day. Something was lost, is missing. I cannot name it or describe it, but you are part of it. Maybe all of it. You will find me and drag me down to the Deep Waters and we will love for eternity. What is one lifetime to wait? Nothing. If I were ignorant; if I didn't know. But I do know. Each touch, each time, each brief moment together fills me with joy and peace before draining me, cruelly, against my protests. I'm not done here, but I wake up empty just the same. I wake up crying and forsaken. I love again and again. I struggle and learn. I hope for meaning that will never be revealed. I make a good life here. I love, I strive, I share. I am not alone. You can see that. But it's not the same. These feelings pale to The Before and The After. Is it time I'm supposed to appreciate? And it's passage? For us, a moment was forever and the universe a drop of water. For me, here, without you, time is a prison.


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My eyes are open. My eyes are open so I must be awake. What is that sound? What is that clicking sound? A black stick is falling toward my eyes. I see it. But I'm not blinking. My eyes aren't closing. My eyes can't close. The stick moves past. It's alive. Without moving my head. I can't move my head. I see my wife beside me in bed. Reading. “Please help me,” I say. She ignores me. I see the black sticks again. Legs. They are legs. Weaving. Spider legs. I lift my hand to brush them away. My hand doesn't lift. My arm doesn't move. My arms are made of stone, concrete. They will not move. I feel something on my sternum. Heavy. Round. Like a living bowling ball. Directing the spiders on my face. I can hear them. I know their language. But they are whispering. I ask them, “Why are you doing this?” “What are you doing?” The spider on my sternum shifts. The spiders on my face say “Hush.” Spiders don’t have the concept of a “tone of voice”. But. These two spiders spinning the web to cocoon my head. They seem very patronizing. I haven't earned the right to know what they are doing. My eyes close. I am lost in time. It's almost silly when I find out. The spiders are aware of the popularity of Spider-Man. They think that sounds like a good idea. A spider-human hybrid would be wonders for their reputation. I was chosen as one of the test beds for the brightest spider minds. I would not be their final achievement. No. But I would be experimented on. Techniques would be perfected. I was adrift in time. My eyes open and I am free. I stand and see a well-lit living room. I see an indoor swimming pool, in ground. Not large, but exceptionally clean and inviting. I walk forward and feel my body. The limbs are lanky. Extra tissue has been removed or replaced. My skin seems paper thin on my hands. I step into the water of the pool. It's warm. I expected it to be cool, but it's warm. I lower my head into the water and breathe. I can breathe underwater. I feel the water on my head. My hair is short. I see my golden silk house clothes billow in the water. I exit the pool on the other side, using the concrete steps. A little girl, perhaps 10 years old runs up and smiles at me. “I hate it when you go in the water,” she says. “Sometimes you stay down there for 15 minutes!” She's so young that 15 minutes must seem like eternity. “You'll understand when you're older,” I say. I don’t recognize my own voice. I half-remember a lifetime of experience. Decades. It's breakfast time. One of my daughters is cooking breakfast. I can smell the sizzling meat. I feel a warm surge down my legs. I look down and see hundreds of small brown and gray spiders spread out from my pants. I can hear them. Each of them. I know them. Every one of them. Not by name. They don't have names. But we are connected. They know me and I know them. I know what they know and see what they see. But I don’t see it. I just know it. They are going on patrol. They will keep out the vermin. They will be the barrier at the edge of our domain. They will die to protect us. My body sways and my legs carry me to the table. There are other family members already sitting, all female. Women and girls. I am a grandmother, perhaps a great-grandmother. In this house, I am the Mother of All Spiders. I remember for the spiders. They have short lives. To them my mind is vast. My lifespan nigh immortality. I am their computer. I am their incubator. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The children! My face turns toward the front room. Before I can form a coherent thought. My hands reach down in front of me and grip the floor. My legs bend and crack. My legs reach up behind me and grab the ceiling. My arms bend and crack . My arms reach up above me and grab the ceiling. My throat aches. My mouth opens wide. I rush along the ceiling. Faster than I imagined possible. I burst through the doorway. I see a man. I know him. He has his hand inside his jacket. He's reaching for something. I snarl and a glob of webbing is projected out of my throat at high velocity. It hits the man in the chest. He's knocked backwards and onto the floor. “No need for that,” he says. He pulls out an envelope. He waves it in the air. My legs reach down to the floor. My legs crack and bend. My arms let go of the ceiling. My arms crack and bend. The spinnerets in my throat retract. The two halves of my jaw reconnect themselves. “You didn't knock,” I say. He stands up. He shakes his head. “When the day comes, you will never see me coming.” He hates us. We know. He knows we know. He doesn't care. He waggles the envelope. “Just take it.” I take the envelope. It is addressed to our family. “Mayor thought it'd be funny to have me deliver your invitation.” I open the envelope and start reading. My spiders will keep their eyes on our guest. And my mind is connected to their minds. My mind is connected to their eyes. I read the invitation: cordially invited… demonstration of advances in science and medicine… honored guests… I remember now. We, the spiders and I, decided to collaborate with other scientists. The best spider minds are very young and naïve compared to the best human minds. It made sense. “I hear they're planning to show off something with centipedes,” he says. My children shift uneasily. The man straightens his jacket and makes a sinister finger gun gesture. “Be seeing you,” he says, before leaving of his own accord.


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The cemetery asphalt is cool in the afternoon shade, identical tombstones, some hundreds of years old stretch as far as I can see. The wrought-iron gate to the inner sanctum, separated by a tall brick wall opens as I approach. I slip in and it closes silently as I navigate through the entrance maze. A right, a left, two rights, and left, and another left. I step into the courtyard and see a few of the workers pruning apple trees or working the garden. Some wave, some ignore me, some don't even notice my passage. I look up at the sanctum, a structure of stone expanded with wood, steel, and siding, ancient and modern gripping each other but never quite merging. I see a young-looking man in the massive arched doorway, thinning brown hair, slightly overweight. “Misty!” Dan calls out. “Misty Meaner!” he says with a wink and a smirk. I roll my eyes and shake my head. His grey-blue eyes invite you to fall into them, fly away, forever. His smile tethers itself to your heart and reels you in. “How old are you, again?” I ask, breaking eye contact. “That's—you know it—it's different.” he stammers. “Point taken, though.” I can feel his magnetism settling, simmering instead of boiling over. As we head inside, I can hear loud dialogue, likely from the theater. “It is,” he says, responding to my thoughts. “I've made some real progress on the 'magitech',” he gushes. “The 3D effect is next level now, with actual depth. “Only works for black and white films right now, but I'll get there.” He takes my hand. “You'll have to come by after your shift,” he offers. I shrug and bight my tongue behind a thin smile. “Be polite,” I think. He steps in front of me, using a tender gesture to raise my head. “Hey, wait.” he says squinting, hiding his charms, probing gently past my surface thoughts. “Are you okay?” I chuckle, “Actually, I feel like shit, but I've got responsibilities so here I am.” I do feel like shit. Brain fog, tight emotions, unexpected bouts of rage and crying. He sniffs the air lightly, “I didn't want to say anything last week.” “About what?” I ask. “Well—I'm not trying to be rude, but I think your hormones are off.” I nod slowly, “That would make sense.” “I haven't had bloodwork in over a year and my endo was talking about switching to injections.” He pats my shoulder, “Please take care of yourself. If it's money, you know she will cover it.” I shrug, “It's time. I have no time.” “Oh,” I start, “will the elders be upset by it?” Dan takes a deep breath and slowly releases it, “I doubt it; it's still closer to what they prefer than any cissy could manage.” “Anyway, I'll let you get to it.” He heads back to his movie theater and his experiments. I assume that's where most of the younger members are.

I remember the ad that brought me here almost two years ago: “Seeking Part-time Caregiver for multiple elderly residents. Must be well-read and have a strong voice. Services will be limited to reading and light teaching. Medical training not required.” And the part that really got my attention, “Transgender women on full HRT only.” I had to see what it was all about. I replied to the ad and met Melinda at an outdoor cafe downtown for coffee. I had water. Melinda was a fount of radiant 'house mom' energy, carefully put together comfortable but elegant outfit, expertly styled red hair, subtle 'no makeup' look makeup. Her eyes were a strange mixture of green and gold. I'd never seen gold in someone's eyes before. And her easy smile lulled me into complacency. I was spilling my deepest secrets and weird hobbies before I even noticed what I was saying. She told me about the job, about my charges, about the fact that they are mostly non-verbal and mobility impaired, but they like to be read to. I was moved to compassion. When she said the job was at an estate in the middle of a national cemetery in the oldest part of town, I was intrigued. I was taken to meet 'The Elders' and was led through a cavernous house, almost a castle, down stone steps lined with torches, to a large room filled with ancient armors, mounted weapons, and two walls of books stretching a full story high. At one end was the largest fireplace I'd ever seen. You could drive a car through it. And it was fully ablaze. I couldn't imagine how much fuel it took to burn that strongly. I was told 'The Elders' were cold blooded and liked the heat. When we got closer to the fire, I saw them, 10 pale faces with bright eyes sharing a deeply set opulent sofa, watching me, following me, each body bundled in heavy blankets or furs. “That's a good sign,” Melinda assured me. They had ignored other applicants, I was told. We stood between 'The Elders' and the fireplace. “Great and Honored Elders,” she said, bowing. “I present Misty Allen Shaffer for your approval.” I heard a sound like sighing or coughing, but so faint I couldn't tell from where. “Thank you,” she said, bowing again. She smiled at me, so wide her teeth shimmered in the firelight, “They will allow it.” Apparently, it meant I got the gig. She asked me to bring some modern science fiction from the library to read. She defined “modern” as anything after 1900. In spite of the walls of books we'd passed, they were awfully tired of what they had on hand. I'd come in and sit by the fire and read out loud for them for three hours once a every weekend, doing different voices for the different characters. They'd study me with their inscrutable eyes the entire time, never speaking, but occasionally making small noises. When I moved around, they followed me with their gazes, sometimes imperceptibly moving their heads, but often just with their eyes. I could tell what authors they liked and which they didn't although I'm not sure how. I could feel it. The particularly liked Asimov, Bradbury, and Frank Herbert but weren't fans of Philip K. Dick. When I read even newer authors like Liu Cixin or N. K. Jemisin, the vibe in the room was particularly electric. I'd caught an uneasy amusement from them when I read Peter Watts' 'Blindsight'.

Today, I was bringing a classic, HG Wells' 'The Time Machine'. Down 40 stone steps around a column, lit and warmed by torches at every fifth step. Into the visitation hall. Even in the dim light of the fire, I can see them watching me. I feel loved and involuntarily smile. “Good afternoon, everyone!” I call out. “As promised, HG Wells' 'The Time Machine' with a nameless protagonist and a look at what the future may hold, written in 1895. “I know that's few years older than you'd prefer, but trust me, it is worth it. “It gets pretty 'out there' toward the end. “You'll love it.” They study me as I read from the elaborate, carved seat by the fire. “Chapter 1,” I began, using an English accent befitting the author. “The Inventor.” I'd made it to the section where The Time Traveler loses The Time Machine to the Morlocks (who I voiced as deep throated aristocrats – inspired by Jeremy Irons performance in the movie) when the first rumble shook dust from the walls. As I look around for a source, I spot a red strobing light above the door. “Shit!” Evacuation? What was happening up there? “Uh, everybody?” I call out. They watch me intently, “We've got to go.” I'd been trained for this, drills even, although I was told it would probably never be required. I jog over to the hidden emergency exit door, trying to remember the pattern. Like a backwards treble clef, then three parallel lines, then eleven o'clock, three o'clock, seven o'clock. POP A handle appears and I struggle to slide the door which has probably been closed for longer than I've been alive. I create an opening about three feet before turning back around. The Elders still sit. They are watching me but not standing, not moving. They are supposed to follow me. “Come on!” I yell, waving at them with both arms above my head. Nothing. I reach into my bag and pull out my multitool. I stare at it in my hand, breathing hard. I slide it open and expose the knife, seeing flames dancing in reflection. “Hey, y'all!” I call out. Nothing. I'm going to have to do this. I bite my lower lip, hard, and cut a shallow, inch long gash in my left arm. The Elders lean forward but do not rise. Damn. I cut a second, longer and deeper gash close to the first. It burns and try not to scream through gritted teeth. “Mother fucker” I mutter. Blood runs down my arm to my elbow where it falls and splatters on the floor. The Elders stand and shuffle toward me, rasping from slightly open mouths. I squeeze into the hidden hallway and hold my arm where they can see it. Where they can smell it. The burning sensation runs all the way from my arm to my chest, making it hard to breathe. I did not expect it to hurt that much. How deep did I cut? I hear shouting from further down the corridor. Their language. A language I don't recognize. Flashlight beams play upon the walls and naked feet slap against the stonework. I still do not understand them but I catch words that seem familiar. 'anthropos' 'aima' Men, women in fatigues churn up from the catacombs, swarming around me, taking the arms of The Elders and leading them deeper into the passages. A man I've never seen leads me back to the reading room. I'm dizzy. “Foolish” I hear him say as he pulls a first aid kit out of his backpack. He's examining my cut which I can see spurts blood every couple of seconds. Whoops. The ground is shaking or it could just be me. “Skata” says the man looking at my arm. “Ti krima“ He shakes his head and sprays something that cleans the blood away. Then he places an absorbent pad and begins to wrap gauze. Something cracks, my ears ring, I'm on the floor. I can't move. I can't see. I hear the man scream, “Gamo to!!” Then “Gia to aima!” I can't feel my legs or arms. I'm not sure if I'm breathing. It's so heavy. I'm cold. Tired. Exhausted. I should sleep. Sleep. Yes. It's quiet. Warm. Like floating in river. Darkness.

. .. ... .... ..... —

Lightning strikes my heart. My head explodes. My arms and legs vibrate like plucked guitar strings. I hear myself screaming but the voice isn't mine. Something burrows into my throat, wiggling its way up to my mouth. My teeth clench, tear, I taste blood and bile. Sound pours itself into my ears, squeaks, groans, gasps. Pumping sounds. The flow of liquid. Sizzling steam, fire. Breaths, whispers. I smell sand, sweat, decay, perfume, incense. Something sweet. I can't name it. But I desire it more than anything I've ever wanted in my life. I can see colors that I do not recognize, outlines of life and probability. I sit up, grab my head. “Misty, you were chosen.” Chosen. I hear it. She's talking. It's Melinda. I love her. I would do anything for her. “For your selfless actions to save The Eldest Among Us, for your kindness and devotion, for your courage and calm under pressure.” My heart swells with each word of praise. “Where once there was death, now there is new life.” I feel her take my hand, our souls intermingle, our life force blends. I am hers. She helps me up. To my feet. I do not waver. I stand like a statue. I look down at my body. Naked. Small breasts, slightly protruding gut hanging over an equally small penis. Cold, but I do not shiver. I frown. This is not what I'm supposed to look like. For a moment I am ashamed. “Welcome our sister,” she says. “Misty Allen Shaffer,” a chorus of voices replies. “Receive your second gift and your secret name.” The crowd parts. “Become what you were meant to be.” A woman wearing only a solemn expression walks toward me. “Receive your second gift,” the crowd repeats. The smell from earlier. I catch it again, thicker, a current guiding me. My mouth twitches, my tongue curls itself into knots. The woman is directly in front of me now. She kneels and tilts her head to the right, exposing her neck. My heart pounds. I feel something slide and shift inside my mouth. Something stabbing my gums and lips. Without thinking, I bend down and bite the woman on the jugular. My exposed fangs effortlessly pierce the skin. The warmth of blood pouring into me is like nothing I've ever experienced. I see memories of her life, a child of poverty, sold, bought, raised almost as livestock but wanting for nothing. I feel her relief, honor, fear at being brought here tonight for me. Fire floods my body, every nerve ending tinkling like a bell, every cell ravenous and renewed. The blood wakes me, the world fills with song, like angels, like a chorus of stars in the heavens. Light pours from me. I feel strong, fast, free. Alive. I was dead. Now I am alive. “Enough,” Melinda whispers to me. I immediately stand. Someone takes the girl aside to bandage her wounds. I know their language now. I see it. I see a word. My word. “Υδατογενής“ Because I adapted myself, changed, flowed into true being. “I am Υδατογενής.”


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I heard the man across the restaurant, excitedly telling his server about his “vision quest”.

I reached into his mind and watched the finale before he spoke it: stripped nearly naked, hooks pulling his skin on both sides of his torso, darkness, firelight, drums, and a heavy dose of ayahuasca.

He said his vision brought him here, to our little out-of-the-way hamlet, by the shallow lake, by the thick woods, between the mountains.

And I saw his vision: the surging water, the sudden collapse, the sky lit by fiery aurorae.

He had seen something he should not have seen.

I twisted his vision, brought it from the past to the present, parked it in place, amplified it with my own magick.

His head went back, eyes wide, mouth slack open and keening like a dying animal.

I turned back to my companion, the witch. She had a name, but I called her “the witch”.

“Someone call 911,” she said.

The police and paramedics gently took him away, for observation, for his own safety.

Most everyone there was part of the plan. Most everyone there knew what had really happened and breathed a sigh of relief.

Others just shook their heads, feeling sorry for a man who had some sort of nervous breakdown at a crowded restaurant.

I took the witch's hand and said we needed to talk to her father.

This man's vision was not part of our plan and what it showed was troubling, too troubling to talk about in mixed company.

She was unconcerned. She didn't see what I saw.

As we exited into the street, into the cool night, into the moist air, we talked about what we'd accomplished in three generations.

We'd made this town prosperous. We made it comfortable.

We were in brochures and discussed on message boards and social media.

“a haunted little town”

“a beautiful, if quirky, gem”

“strange tidings, lovely people”

This place was alive and we bled off the excess slowly, for our own benefit, for the benefit of everyone who called this place home.

What he had seen was like a tidal wave, like the water, once sucked out to sea, suddenly pouring back in, overwhelming everything.

I was old enough to know what this meant but I said nothing of my fears to the witch.

Fear? Was it fear?

Or was it a sense of the inevitable. Of knowing this day would come.

Was it relief?

Could the emotions of a thing like me be described in such simple terms?

The witch smiled, and intertwined our arms.

It was a cold night and I could see her breath.

The parking lot of her father's office, the only office building in town, was empty.

A witch like him didn't need to drive.

There was no warning.

The parking lot exploded in front of us as a house made of metal and wire seemed to dig its way up through molten asphalt and churning earth.

I recognized it at once; “the clockwork witch,” I said out loud.

The witch at my side did not understand.

To her “the clockwork witch” was an urban legend.

A tale to terrify young witches into behaving.

“The clockwork witch” had been the creator of this place, had filled it with potential, with purpose.

She'd created a nexus (a nadir, really), a place where all magic must flow and would feed and feed until she had the power to rule everything, everyone.

But she was betrayed and locked away by her students, by her lessers.

How had they found the words to bind her?

How had they discovered the symbols needed?

How had they devised such clever wards without help?

I knew what happened, because I was there.

Yes, of course I knew.

She was trapped outside of time, outside of space.

A pocket reality where she could play god or goddess, do whatever she wished, create, destroy, anything.

But away from here, away from us.

We steeped in the magick, siphoned a little off the top, before releasing it back into the world.

What flows here, we use simply, for our own benefit, for the benefit of the town.

We share. We cooperate. We thrive.

For generations.

Now, here she was, the clockwork witch reborn.

She could not be as strong as she once was, the power was no longer here and breaking free could not have been easy.

But some magick requires only the correct way of thinking and reality will bend all on its own.

And the witch beside me disappeared, vanished.

I believed her father had probably done the same.

Not by choice.

No, the clockwork witch had them.

She looked so human as she stood before me, an old woman in one view, a towering fiend from another angle. I saw both simultaneously.

She knew me, remembered me.

It had been hundreds of years for me, for her, who knows? An hour, a weekend, a millennium?

I was standing before her.

I did not move nor was I moved, I was simply in front of her now whereas previously I had not been.

I bowed before her. As was my position.

The position she had appointed.

“Watcher,” she said.

“Master,” said I.

“Am I?” she said.

I said nothing.

“Watcher, tell me what has happened.”

She did not mean with words but with my mind I exposed all the centuries of memories, of meetings, decisions, of births, deaths, agreements made and broken, waters risen and fallen, the shift from the forest to the edge, from hiding to inviting, to deceit and capitalism.

I showed her almost everything.

I felt her disappointment.

I was supposed to shepherd them, not become their servant.

She raised a phial of liquid to her lips and drank.

I knew these phials and felt this was the remains of the father of the witch who had been my companion.

“Mary” had been her name. I felt shame in using it now.

At one angle the clockwork witch great taller, broader, in another, she grew younger.

She lifted another phial and spoke to it: “what is it you want?” she asked.

And Mary's voice said, “I've only ever wanted  a small coven of my own.”

We both felt the truth in this. Mary had been part of the great work because it was her birthright, but her heart was never in it, not like her father.

The clockwork witch felt no anger or hatred from her.

“Then have it,” she said, tossing the phial back into the pocket dimension in which she had been trapped.

I wished Mary well.

“Watcher,” she said to me.

I felt the sting of her eyes, the depth of her gaze.

She reached into me, deeply, deeper than I'd even allow myself to venture.

“You betrayed me,” she said.

There was no emotion to her words. I could feel her words and there was no emotion.

It was only a statement of fact.

I did not remember betraying her, but I felt the truth in it.

It was me. I taught them to capture her.

Then I made myself forget.

I felt my body slip away, forget itself completely, become liquid, become smoke, slithering into the ground, but I was caught, and stoppered.

And she drank me.

I felt myself break apart, each bit struggling to remember a single fact, a single bit of information.

That was all I was, information.

That was my purpose.

And I felt each fragment lose its grip until even my own name was a mystery.

I was nothing but her blood, her life.

I was gone.


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